Consciousness is the most unbelievable game there is. I can't fathom it into words.

Consciousness means trying to understand your body from the inside out. This is notoriously hard, especially the levels that have to do with thinking and how you look at something.

Consciousness is the pointer to where something might be wrong in how you look at the world. You do the shooting.

The most important phase in consciousness is the phase where you are obsessed with everything you think, your thoughts, and how they work.

There is nothing egocentric about that. That's how you learn to form your own opinion. You treat all your thoughts with all your attention. Together, all these thoughts form a framework of your norms and values.

A lot of people have tendencies to either ‘undervalue’ thoughts or to see thinking as an addiction—like overthinking. There is no overthinking. You learn how to think and how your thoughts are structured. This takes a lot of time and practice. You can just sit, and it will happen automatically. For instance, if all your thoughts start with ‘I am worthless,’ then that is something to pay attention to. You structure your thoughts a certain way, and consciousness can help you gain insight into that.

This is also the reason people who like consciousness naturally gravitate toward seeing as many sides of life as possible. That's because you understand how limiting one set of ideas about reality can be. Like the example above, if you start every thought with ‘I am worthless’ because somebody taught you that from a young age, this can lead to very annoying outcomes later on in life.

The structure of my thoughts feels like piano keys sparkling up. You see a thought in one long line, or short lines when you make short thoughts. (I like to play with short thoughts.)

And an average thought, for example, looks like this:

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For somebody with ADD, average thoughts are shorter in the same amount of time.

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There is nothing wrong with that, as long as you see it for what it is.

I love playing life with short thoughts. You can also sit back a little bit and spend more energy per thought, making it into bigger lines. This also helps you practice focus.

If you got through rough times, often when you have been too critical of yourself for too long, the idea you have about something gets overworked. It’s like having too big a stack of what reality is. Now, you suddenly think that a helicopter is chasing you or that angels enter your room.

This also happens when you are extremely critical of your own emotions. In general terms, then it’s time to start forgiving yourself for the mistakes you have made and look with softer eyes. You don’t have to do anything, just look at yourself with eyes of forgiveness.

Okay, so you thought a helicopter was chasing you? Forgive yourself. It’s also important to do this when you have suppressed love or sexual feelings for too long.

With being good at consciousness and thinking naturally comes great humility. After the phase where you obsess over your own norms and values, you naturally start listening to others once again—how they see the world. You also gain respect for what their norms and values are, instead of only focusing on your own.

Still, the biggest insight for me was understanding how critical I am of myself, and of how I think and view the world. I had to go very deep into my own thinking and emotions to see that, to resolve that pain. I could never have done that without consciousness.

By the way, don’t worry, the journey of consciousness never ends. There is always room for refinement in your thinking.

On Sundays, I often practice feeling love and happiness. It’s a lost art—something you can easily forget how to do in this day and age. It can almost feel scary in the beginning.

Sometimes it is good to be sad. And sometimes you don't know exactly what you feel.

For me, it’s important to go back to that deepest feeling of what me is, what my emotion is. It’s normal to lose it for a couple of years, as long as you find it back.

I like that life feels like being a hundred percent engaged in something, and then it’s like it drops you back on earth. For me, it’s being all in, all out.

If you get used to that rhythm, it’s not scary anymore. You kind of get lost in thought, and you know you will return to the ground at one point.

The feeling of being alive

I don’t like the passive stance we have when it comes to mental health.

I think there is no difference between mental and physical health. They are both health.

Just like you can fix your physical health by eating clean and working out, you can fix your mental health by addressing emotions proactively within yourself. Always go for the dark emotions first: that’s where the most profit is. Do not shy away from those feelings.

You can draw, cook, write, talk to someone, whatever.

Feelings in themselves are not bad. It’s not bad to feel lonely. Most feelings are perfectly normal.

Energy is about your whole body.

Your brain is a small part of yourself.

We get this confused all the time.

Children don’t have ADHD. They have a lot of energy. That’s something different.

A lot of physical energy.

A lot of creative energy.

If you have a lot of energy, and someone says, “sit still,” you get more energy on a smaller surface area. So your head gets busier faster. That has nothing to do with ADHD.

Can that be annoying? Sure. But if you learn how to deal with it, it’s the best thing there is.

I honestly don’t understand why everyone doesn’t have a busy head. Something is changing in your body all the time. You register that. Every second, your feeling of hunger changes. And all the billions of other feelings in your body.

So, by definition, you should have a busy head.

I have a feeling most people have fallen asleep.

The problem with brain scans is that you're forever going to find certain patterns. That's because people have a lot of energy and use their brain differently. So you get different patterns. It's not the other way around. The pattern gets woven into the brain; the brain doesn't dictate.

So if I have a lot of energy, I'm naturally going to try to maintain my posture because the rest is sitting still more. You can see these patterns in the brain, not the other way around.