You didn't spend one minute looking at how thoughts work inside yourself.
You didn't spend one second feeling where power in your body comes from.
Hint: it's not your brain. The fact that our bodies get messed up when a brain malfunctions doesn't mean that brains are important.
This is the same logical mistake as thinking that if the universe expands, reversing it means it shrinks.
If a universe is a trillion things, then expansion is just one of those trillion things. You can't take one element and reverse the entire process. So you don't really know what happened at the beginning of time.
There has to be an element of not knowing, an unknown factor, and an inability to predict the future. Because if everything were already known when the universe started, it would immediately collapse as a whole—the entire line, from beginning to end.
It's beautiful: the universe does not know everything about itself.
How Brains Explain Things to Us
"The kingdom is within you," the wise person said. It's true. When we sit alone at home, our brains start to explain things to us.
"You have to touch everything left and right," my brain once said. It was directive. I did it, until I realized that was the first moment I was separated from my brain, so to speak. I could separate myself from the command, "Touch everything left and right." This is how our bodies talk to us: by adding things to our consciousness, our awareness.
Over the years I separated myself more and more from my thoughts, actions, and feelings. "A division in the midst of the waters," another wise person once said. The you that unfolds in the middle.
"It's just an illusion," the snake says.
I walked by. It's a matter of class, of principle. I don't listen to the snake. Then I realized I was walking back. I am going to listen to the snake. It's better to listen to your enemies.
I walked toward my darkest thought.
"Speak out," I said.
"You are understimulated, and when you don't do anything, your working memory gets underwhelmed, and you're going to make a fool of yourself in front of your colleagues," the dark thought told me.
"Let's go," I said. "Show me. We are going down in flames, you and me—you, the thought within me."