Plateaus

I vividly remember the first time I was aware of my sexuality.

I vividly remember the first time I was aware of what I was thinking.

It is like two train tracks: one where something happens, and one where you become aware of it.

Learning to know your own body happens through plateaus. You hit these levels of awareness. For some reason, some people do not notice that this happens. I do not know why it is the way it is.

The best thing about awareness is that you can help each other. Thinking moves incredibly fast: your body has to do it on “autopilot” because otherwise it would take too much time to manage every individual thing (there are billions of connections).

For example: do you recognize this loop? Something feels off, and you are subconsciously trying to fix it with another diet, calorie restriction, or workout scheme. This often goes unnoticed. This is where awareness can help. Either you write down your own loops yourself, or you ask somebody else to help you. These learning plateaus can be brutal.

Fixing your relationship with food can take dozens of attempts before you finally notice, in the moment, that you are making the same mistake again — for example because you are under stress.

There is often a lot of confusion when separating awareness and consciousness from mental disorders. Are you distracted, or are you forming new connections very quickly? It is those nuances that are vital in understanding the human brain.