Voor de kleine kabouters met de lieveheersbeestjes-tas: we vullen onze hoofden liever met leuke en gezellige dingen.
If those thoughts wouldn’t matter to you, you wouldn’t notice them. The fact that you notice them says everything. You can always stop listening to them. But give it a try. Your brain is not here to trick you, it wants to explain something to you.
Everyone Has That Internal Voice
Remember that everyone has that internal voice — that is the lesson.
That it’s something amazing.
Everyone, right now, has thoughts, things they say to themselves.
What is he thinking, what is she thinking?
We are all wrapped up in those voices.
I pretend to ignore them.
But we are like mummies, wrapped tightly in those thoughts.
Everyone has this.
That is the lesson.
Daydreaming is vital for forming new connections. It's therefore important that everybody has a little bit of time to daydream.
We have an unbelievably unhealthy relationship with thinking. A lot of people can't even be alone with their own thoughts. Or worse, they become Buddhists, breathing their thoughts away.
Yes, I am scared too, yet I am still here, sitting and facing my worst thoughts. Bring it.
I think a lot of us run away from feelings for so long and so far that we can literally end up in psychiatry or wearing an orange jumpsuit in a Buddhist monastery. It starts with something small: I don't want these thoughts. I don't want these feelings. And before you know it, you end up on a mountain, breathing your thoughts—and your life—away.
To overcome something like an eating disorder, you basically have to remember one rule. And you have to practice it. This is unbelievably annoying and hard.
The rule goes like this: every time I feel something is “off,” I don’t feel well, or I can’t explain something, the first thing I check is whether I’ve had enough to eat and drink.
That’s the rule. It’s that simple.
You’ll find yourself punishing yourself with food, or creating completely new calorie-intake schemes without realizing you’re doing it, because you’ve taught yourself to respond that way to bad feelings.
The only rule is this: I don’t feel good. I check my food and drink intake first. The rest comes after that.
By the way, a lot of “normal” people do this too. You’re busy trying to solve the world until you realize you simply needed food.
Have you ever wondered how awareness works?
Sometimes you become aware of your own heartbeat, think you're going crazy, and fear that you're going to lose your mind.
Or consider gravity: it's always there, but you only seem to feel it when it enters your field of awareness.
The interesting thing is that both of these things exist all the time, yet we don't notice them all the time. This is beautiful. It's as if nature is teaching us that we can learn to focus on other things as well—things that interest us.
It goes in circles.
What it means that G is perfect
It means this:
My uncle worked with poisonous paint, and he smoked. He went to the doctor. The doctor said, "You are sick. You have COPD."
From one perspective, that means there is something wrong with nature, something negative.
From a religious perspective, it is exactly as it should be. It is not an anomaly. The doctor could have said, "Why are you here? Your body is in harmony with nature. You are perfect."
You might be sick, but I would be more worried if you weren't sick after years of exposing yourself to poisonous paint and smoking. That is the religious perspective.
So religion, in that sense, is brutally hard and honest. It is the opposite of the rosy, comforting version that many people imagine it to be.
Everything that is, is. But you still have choice and freedom. We live in freedom — that is the point of religion.
“Gay, is that it?”
I was sitting in the office of the mental institution. The psychiatrist and her assistant were arguing about what was wrong with me.
“Are you sure?” she said. “We had another guy here last week who turned out to be gay.”
“I don’t think so,” I said.
“Okay, autism then maybe?”
* Things that really happened
“How do you feel, John?”
“I feel a bit weird, a bit groggy. I feel like something is a little bit off.”
“You say that every time after your electroshock therapy, John.”
“No, this time it’s different. Normally I can handle it, but not this time.”
“You have also said that every time.”
* Things that really happened
Welcome to the pro league of thinking
I know you don’t believe me, but I’ve found secrets of this universe worth at least two Nobel Prizes.
Voices in my head? For me, it’s like some loose stick with a voice stuck on top of it. Yeah, something like that.