I wouldn’t consider what I did an eating disorder, but it was pretty close.

Do you know this loop?

You feel bad → you postpone lunch, or you don’t eat at all.

The weird thing is how fast it goes. One second you are fine, the next second you put an emotion away and you don’t eat.

How to change this relationship you have with feeling bad and food:
every time you notice you do that, you immediately eat. You have to rewire this. Over time, the relationship becomes normal again. You see food then as something you need — you nourish yourself, you feed yourself.

OCD is annoying. If you are in a loop like “I have to walk three circles around every tree I see,” the trick is to play along with yourself, walking while sabotaging a little bit. I put my “I am going to annoy you, OCD” jacket on and I do three circles around the tree, but I do one half circle, or I do one backwards. Just to mess with it a little. Over time, OCD gets so annoyed it stops.

When it comes back, you do the same. You play along, and you sabotage.

If you want to understand consciousness, two things are important:

  • daydreaming. Do it. It’s important, because your body is going to explain how it works.

  • thinking about the past. Reflecting is vital, especially when you went through sexual situations (consent, for instance).

Do you know who will never understand this? Buddhists. They undervalue thoughts and overvalue the here and now, which is dangerous.

Everything works very well, as it should.

Why smart people don’t really care about evolution

Let’s say we humans have eradicated every animal species in a few thousand years. I get it: it’s officially not a part of evolution. The fact that we eradicate is probably the result of our evolution.

But we are still going to do it. We still influenced the process of evolution more than any species ever has. The slow, evolutionary process is cute, but it doesn’t stand a chance.

Same with knowledge: if half of humans know it’s smart to boil water and the other half doesn’t, half dies, and you can’t adequately spot that in evolutionary theory (only indirectly).

I honestly think evolution is a smart theory, and I’m sure we have the same ancestors. The problem is that it has very little to do with survival.

Most knowledge, wisdom, is not transferred via DNA. So the mutations are close to irrelevant compared to somebody explaining something to you. If I can explain to you how all the others are going to like you, good chance you will reproduce. And you can’t see that in DNA.

If you would want to prove we live in freedom, how do you do that?

Let’s say the universe wants to do that from the get-go, and that is why evolution exists.

How would you evolve?

You wouldn’t evolve — you would express yourself in differences. Different people, every animal is different.

Our universe expresses its own freedom through us, since we are all so different yet living in the same universe.