One of the biggest ‘violations’ in nature is wanting to start a new thought, wanting to speak out, and then not doing it. Because our thinking and speech are at the core of what we are. The energy you spend suppressing your own voice will eventually bite you.
Mother Nature is incredibly defensive about the privacy of our thoughts and inner world, and our voices. That is so beautiful in itself; there are no words for it.
How to access your subconscious
Yes, this is possible. You can access all these actions you do automatically, like suppressing an emotion or your voice very quickly. Just go there.
Do you know that at the heart of a lot of psychiatric diseases?
Learned behaviour.
You want to speak out, but you don’t finish your sentence because you grew up in the wrong household. You may not realize that, but it’s possible you are still doing that, sitting and reading right now.
Or you have an emotion, but you cut it off prematurely because you grew up in a household where feelings were not allowed. Or where everything needed to be ‘manly’.
This goes blazing fast. Emotion is there and then ‘snap’—you immediately suppress it. Or you want to say something and then ‘boom, rather not’.
A message from backstage
There are 2 groups of people: people who study the brain and body from the outside, and people who do it from their own inside. I am in the latter group.
Yes, this is possible. This dance with yourself you call consciousness.
Right now, nobody knows how the brain works. Let’s say in a few years we do. And then we have a solution for every ‘problem’ in the brain. Then we’ll arrive at some very fundamental problems.
I personally think that something like ADHD is at the core of what somebody is, in that person’s whole body, and having a chaotic mind is a reflection of that.
So every fiber of that person’s whole body is first, and the mind shows that via the reflection of thoughts. Treating that with medicine would threaten the core of life itself.
On the other hand, there are people who have a chaotic mind because they didn’t feel safe in their own bodies when they were younger. They may have the exact same symptoms and get diagnosed with ADHD, but they don’t have the same ‘ADHD’, if that makes sense.
Emotions, for example, are at the core of everything. So if you neglect emotional states long enough, you get depressed or anxious. Emotions are ‘whole-body things’. What happens in the brain is therefore rarely ever a problem, because thoughts are very important for nature, just like privacy, so they work very, very well. Thoughts work so well that I have never found a mistake in them, and I am somebody who was in psychosis, depression, had a GAD diagnosis, and ADHD and autism. And I never found any problem with thoughts themselves.
Another specific example:
- I have a fast and chaotic mind. So my whole body is a reflection of that, in everything I do. I am proud of that. I am fast and often chaotic in the eyes of others. But again, I am proud of that.
- There are also people who do not feel safe in their whole bodies, and therefore their minds become chaotic. This is the same thing reversed. This happens when you compress your emotion onto a very small surface in your body. Now everything starts speeding up. So your mind becomes complete chaos.
From the outside, they look the same. You can diagnose both with ADHD. But they have nothing to do with each other.
Basic mechanics of thinking
First: it’s very hard to write this without sounding like an arrogant prick, but I see so much misinformation about what thinking is, I’ll take a shot.
I go running. I get tired and ‘those’ thoughts creep into my head. Do I stop running or not, and why? Do I push through mentally, or not?
The answer is: sometimes you stop, and sometimes you don’t. This dance we have with ourselves is called consciousness. It’s that fine art of living, of knowing exactly when to do something and when not to do something.
A simple measurement is this: did you get seriously injured because you pushed through mentally? Then you still have a lot to learn. I have a friend who is mentally very strong, ran a lot, and pushed through the whole time and got injured every other month. He didn’t understand the dance, the fine line. He, in a sense, undervalued his own thoughts.
What is a thought?
Some thoughts (so not all forms of thinking) are a reflection of the inner state of your whole body. This is very important: thoughts have an unbelievable, valuable function within a body. For some reason, in a lot of traditions, people seem to undervalue thoughts and kind of ridicule them. There is nothing egocentrical about thinking that your thoughts are important – they really are.
If your whole body is in a poor condition, the tone of all your thoughts changes. I have been in phases in my life where I isolated myself too much, didn’t work out, took poor care of my own body, and lacked social connections. So what happened? The tone of my thoughts became more troubled, darker, and the same thoughts kept coming back over and over again. The thing with this is that thoughts themselves are hardly ever the problem. They reflect back the inner state of your whole body.
This means that if your thoughts become darker and darker, this actually matters. You have to seriously investigate this and fix this. This can be anything: your food, your social connections, whether you get enough challenge in life, maybe you are overdoing the same things too much, I don’t know. But don’t be afraid of the thought itself. Thinking works fine, most of the time.
The hard part, and I think this goes wrong in psychiatric diagnoses a lot, is that it works backwards too
Let’s say you have had the idea in your head from a young age that you are worthless. Maybe you had a poor upbringing, maybe you are a part of a minority. This is like a little idea in your head. A little idea in a big body.
The problem with those little ideas is that you actually start acting on them with your whole body. If you think you are worthless, chances of you trying new things become slimmer. It’s easier to stay at home, safe, reconfirming what you already believe about yourself. So in that sense, your whole body is a reflection of the idea you have about yourself. This is where creation is about. Some people craft themselves beautifully in the idea they have about themselves. So if you have the idea that you are a beautiful human being from a young age, you kind of become that later on, left or right. I find this hard to explain; it has nothing to do with arrogance. It’s like a woman who dresses perfectly according to the day. Or somebody who has a home in perfect sync with their inner state.
The problem with a lot of psychiatric diseases is that they are a long-term reflection of what people themselves believe to be (!!!). You have that little thought about yourself → you act on that with your whole body → you spiral into psychiatry. This takes years.
So:
- Thoughts work on a two-way street. If you have the idea that you are worthless from a young age, you easily kind of grow into that person.
- Some thoughts reflect back the state of your whole body.
- I overcame a lot of things. Believe me, anything is possible.